I have been wondering a lot lately.
I have been looking at how crazy my life has gotten.
How I am doing all these things I never saw coming.
How people are looking at and asking me things I never thought anyone would.
I have been in a bit of a struggle lately.
And maybe in those moments when you get so over-run that you begin shutting down,
are the moments you start wondering.
Some things come into an odd sharpness and the rest of life just kind of blurs away.
I wonder if I will ever sing for worship again.
But my latest "on the stage in front of people" moments have been really different lately.
I never thought that would happen…
I actually never thought that I wouldn't do worship…
Funny thinking of that now.
Not that I mind too much.
I wonder where I will be in 5 months from now. 5 years.
I can't even fathom it.
I can barely think straight for the next 5 minutes as it is.
God blows my mind.
I don't want to screw this up. He has been way too good to me.
