Not Over...

I just have this feeling that...
THIS isn't over.

I must hope in you.

And if it stays this way,
at least I can say that
I loved you.

You will be
the best.

Or our bests will
find us.

The truth to tell...

I feel the need to tell the truth.
To unabashedly open my heart and spill the contents.

But sometimes, I don't even like to admit it to myself.

I should have told my best friend.
I should have allowed myself to be vulnerable.

But I wasn't ready for the tears.

Confused...

I am confused.
I thought I heard from God.
I thought I would be good enough this time.
I thought I was doing things RIGHT.

You are one of my best friends.
Are you not suppose to fall for your best friend?
We worked.
There was seamless unison.

I just want to know where I went wrong.
Will it always be this way?

They always come to me.
I listen. I advise.
But its never about me.
I get hurt.
And I keep my friends from hurting the best I can.

How come when I do it right it still fails?
I didn't look for this.
It just came.
Everyone saw it.

I thought I knew...

I am confused.
I don't know if I know what I thought I knew.
Did I ever know?
I don't get it.

My Adventure...

You are the biggest adventure that I have ever been on.
Filled with more fun and more wonder than I ever knew that I could have.
You make me, me.
More me than I ever knew I could be.
You make me wonderful.
You are everything that is meant for me.

I've been down many roads.
I have made much mistakes.
But I know this is not that.
It is the mark of something more; new.

You're the only one I want to know.
And together, we will be unstoppable.

Let's start our dreams and make them reality.

From the moment I met you, I knew that I wanted you around.
You do something to me that I cannot explain.
But the something that you do, I never want to lose.

To love you, that would be easy.
You are every lovely word.
You are the only one that my eyes see.
And more than anything, I hope you're thinking of me.