new again...

I heard from a wise woman once that the one word that describes LIFE is CHANGE.
that wise woman was Donna Louden.
and she not only my leader but my friend. my inspiration. my role model.

Friend--- a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard; a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter

I have good ones =]

my life is changing. sometimes a bit uncomfortably but i know it will be good.
hard too but good.
im learning to live. to be the pillar where there is none. like in my family.
for my disciples when things are shaken. and even if im shaking too, i have to hold on and be strong.
im learning to grow up. be wise and mature. to embark on a new part of my life. moving out, interns... hah, im learning to change...
when things are going away, im learning to know theyre coming back.

tears.
ive had more than ive bargained for lately. but they build me and tear me down at the same time. but what has been torn down will be brought up stronger.
and even when times are hard im pushing and shoving and even crawling it seems at times to God.
to grow closer. to fall deeper in love. to trust. to mature.
God is speaking. and im hearing. im making myself hear better.

boldness.
i have been more bold in the past month than i ever have before. and it is paying off.
hah, ask Joanna Lloyd. she knows some.
ive learned to build up my family and not just myself.
and ive noticed that, as Pastor Jerry said, when i take my eyes off myself and onto HIM and others i actually grow more.
ive learned to pray with my family and not just for them. and ive seen change errupt from them. this is the time.

Me.
im learning who i am. and who i can be.
Donna has really been pushing me for that lately. and its time i stepped up to the plate instead of being afraid of it.
i am realizing the verse "perfect love casts out all fear" in my life.
and Joanna has been pushing me too. and Grace. and Charlotte.
WAY out of my comfort. but being a christian sometimes mean s being uncomfortable.

there are things that are happening that i dont want. but i cant change it.
i have to live with it, be positive, and move on.
because in then end, itll all be ok again.

Im learning to be who i am.
not who i think i am. but who i really am.

I am new, again.

In the words of Jael...

I am the "Victorious Warrior"
I have to admit, I've had my share of victory in my life
But what happens when the situation that needs victory is out of my hands?
When the person I'm closest to, by blood, is hurting now more than I ever have seen him before...
It breaks my heart and I have to sit and watch
I am strong even when I dont always feel it.
I am a warrior and I know it
But now, my cry to God is to help me because on my own... I'm not strong enough.
I am the victorious warrior and now is not the time to give up...
I want to see the victory.

God help me...

Hilarious!

So lastnight Carol and Me got into this british poetic texting spree hahah
and this is what happened! enjoy!

Carollee: Oh dear comrad, your flattery has lifted my spirirt to new heights. How ever will I get down from here?

Me: Perhaps you shall not leave such heights but that my soul would take flight and love would carry us through broad horizons together without worry nor care.

Carollee: Such pleasantry shall I take possession of at once! The need is vital, we msut fly!

Me: Then fly we shall and I will adorn you with such poetics, for my heart burns with the art of your love and the beauty from within you that glitters in ones eyes.

Carollee: A book is to be written as a memorium of our travels together and deep hearted friendship. It would be a great disservice to opt out on notifying the world of our glorious union!

Me: Well then write we shall, for what sadness would it be for our relations to be forgotten and our sould deepest inquiry to be but a lost breath.

THE END =]

what is it that you want?

what is it that you want from me?
im trying...
really i am.
i dont know what to do.
what to say.
think.
i dont know what to do with myself.
im digging deeper,
but even when it seems theres no further i can go it does and i didnt expect it.
it hurts...
im hurt and it hurts others.
i didnt mean to...
im sorry.
i just dont know what to do.
what is is that you want?
i have nothing to give.......
ive given it all...
at least...
i tried.

also...

i love this song...
i want it.

The Fathers Song
I have heard so many songs
Listened to a thousand tongues
But there is one
That sounds above them all

The Father�s song
The Father�s love
You sung it over me and for eternity
It�s written on my heart

CHORUS:
Heaven�s perfect melody
The Creator�s symphony
You are singing over me
The Father�s song
Heaven�s perfect mystery
The king of love has sent for me
And now you�re singing over me
The Father�s song

I have heard so many songs
Listened to a thousand tongues
But there is one
That sounds above them all
[Sounds above them all]

The Father�s song
The Father�s love
You sung it over me and for eternity
It�s written on my heart

CHORUS

It�s Heaven�s perfect mystery
The king of love has sent for me
And now you�re singing over me
The Father�s song

The Father�s song
The Father�s love
You sung it over me and for eternity
It�s written on my heart
[It�s written on my heart]

The Father�s song
The Father�s love
You sung it over me and for eternity
It�s written on my heart
It�s written on my heart
You sing it over me
Father

im missing...

i feel as though im missing.
longing and fighting but getting no response.
what is this dryness thats become?
i cant describe in words this void but i feel it.
i feel it which such intensity that as i lie in wait i ache.
i dont know what to say...
what to do.
what to think.
i pray.
and i pray.
i search.
i see and hear and read.
but i cant feel You.
not enough.
is this an oppressing season?
an attack in the time of desperation?
i am desperate for You. for more.
why is it that on this keyboard in poetic lines i bleed and pour out but i am otherwise speechless and broken and lost?
im confused and im wandering, looking for answers and i cant...
im missing something...

im missing.

Charlotte Leanna!

Happy 22nd Birthday!!!!!!!!
I love you! <3

Know what sounds great...

worship.
intense, abandoned, powerful, breakthrough worship.
like vineyard uk, rick pino worship.
[i want those cds]
i just want to be so consumed with the presence of God i cant move.
overwhelming thickness that speaks and heals and puts away all distractions.
i want more of God and more of His presence...





p.s. i cant wait for The Call saturday =]

ok, ok....

i have confidence in the Lord.
i think only what he says about me even if people are spreading different things about me.
i stand up for God and what i beleive in.
i have zeal and i have fire.
i will change lives and my world.
Jesus, help me.

i will not let the world shape me into its mold!
but i am transformed by the renewing of my mind.
i am strong in the grace of Christ Jesus.
i am bold.

[phillipians 3:7-12]

seriously?

so lastnight i bit my tongue in my sleep!
it hurts so bad!
i like, pierced my tongue! with my tooth!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeird!

i definitely nearly walked out of 2 of my 3 classes today!
complete ridiculousness!
i almost cried in my second one...
i had periods 1,3,5 today and in first period we were getting taught a buttload of lies! about how the universe and earth and stuff were formed...
i texted Charlotte and asked if i could boycott my class for teachingus lies.
then our sub was talking about Obama. eww! NObama!!!
then in third period, psychology, we had to split into groups and make a poster on out personality type.
and the people in my group wrote "NO! prop 8" on ours
they said they were going to write it and i turned around and said dont write that on it or ill write YES on prop 8 all over it and i got chewed out and couldnt get to the poster to write it.
THEN. another group drew on their poster a 4 armed jesus and all this stuff and were making fun of jesus! like all this terrible blasphemous stuff!
i was so mad! agh!
man, when psych turns into a critical issues debate class 2nd semester theres gonna be tension because i will not hold back. and not many other people agree with what i do. so itll be me against..a lot.

well now...

economics is basically the most retarded class on the planet!!!
im attempting to do this project for class and its me and a partner..
it was assigned today and is due at the end of class tomorrow!
how lameeee?! and im not sure how to do my part! i hope i did it right!
aghhh katie wood got the easy part!

oh my gosh my day was ridiculous!
nick threw chris a surprise bday party and i helped and grace too
im so tired
but i feel bad if i go to bed and not know if i totally messed up on my econ homework... pooooo =[

this is lame.
im exhausted and stressed out man! agh!

...i think grace got 'annoyed' at me tonight... that sucks. but iuno.
oh and, i dont get my new phone for a few weeks now. thats even lamer.

im gonna peace out, shower, read my BIBLE =D and a book written by and about John McCain! woo hoo! my Sarah Palin book was rad!

I LOVE JOHN MCCAIN AND SARAH PALIN!
p.s. YES on prop.8! woo
and I love Jesus! =D <33333

today. tonight. my friend. love always, me...

stinkin awesome!
actually my whole day was.
i had to get up at the crack of dawn to get to the church with John Chu to help him with sound
that was an interesting job
then 2nd service i sat in the back with Charlotte
i like that were getting close again but in a different way then we ever were before
she made me a mix cd and its really good
during worship practice Donna kept making me smile
i love that girl
her smile is amazing and when she smiles at me its like a light and a warmth that goes through me and for a moment. for that moment, i forget everything thats going on.
its like my world stops and i feel happy and calm
like my world isnt spinning upside down all around me
my friends.
theyre such a blessing to me.
then i came home and in late afternoon Grace, Ashley, Nick, Dominick, Andy, and Chris came over and we watched a creepy movie called TheEYE. hahaha it was creepy but good and we kept cracking jokes so it wasnt that bad.
Dominick was the first to shriek hahahahaha
then Nick scared the crapples out of me and Grace.
i love my friends so much!
we always have the best times together. =]

and every once in awhile i see a friend and i remember
i remember something that happened and they were there
like today, while i watched worship go on from the sound booth, the team began to sing Healer.
then came the flash.
the song reminds me of the day my uncle died and the week proceeding at GC camp.
i remember that the night before after prayer Donna asked me to spend the night at her house. the next morning, sunday, we got up and picked Donald up for church.
i went home that day just like any other. i was tired so i laid on my couch after reading my bible and i dozed off but i wasnt totally asleep.
then the phone rang.
i look up to see my mom hang up the phone and speed out the door telling me as she left he was in ICU.
i got up and then the feeling hit me. my spirit tangled and nausea overtook me.
i knew. i knew that something bad was gonna happen. like the Holy Spirit was warning me. panic struck and i lost it. i shut myself in the bathroom hoping i wouldnt vomit and collapsed barely able to breathe.
memories flooded my mind and all that i could think or say was, 'no, please, not again.'
i grabbed my phone and, almost as if i was on autopilot, my fingers just dialed numbers. the phone rang and all i hear is Charlottes voicemail.
fail. i didnt know what to do.
i picked up the phone again and my fingers dialed again.
Donna picked up... 'hey, britt.'
all i could mutter was a very high pitched 'hi.'
silence. 'how ya doin?' all in Donnas typical tone when she knew there was something wrong.
i opened my mouth to answer and sobs broke.
'ill be there in 20 minutes.' and she was gone.
she never knew what happened or what i was thinking but she came anyway.
Donna shows up and i walk to her car wiping tears embarassed at myself.
i choke out whats happened when Mick comes out from his place and says, 'its not good. its a code blue and hes not breathing well. pray.'
i turn fetile and cant hold back the tears.
we sit in her car and pray.... i guess i didnt do well enough.
then i had to go babysit my cosens baby as she runs to the hospital. before i leave Mick whispers to Donna exchanging numbers and im to emotionally drained to ask about my suspicions.
Donna helped me watch him as i lay in a daze over the couch.
her phone rings. i look up to see her listen intently... then she gulps and she looks at me with this look i cant describe, hangs up the phone, and doesnt say a word. my suspicions ran high of that phone call but i was too exhausted to ask what it was about.
my mom and cosen show up about 15 minutes later and my mom bends down to me and tells me... and hes gone.
i cant fathom what i hear penetrate my ears and i run out.
at the end of the driveway i cry out to God. tears streaming and i pray with all i have to take it back. every regret washed over me and i wanted to wake up and for it to be a dream. i couldnt handle anymore of these. couldnt handle the things i couldve changed.... i still havent woken up. but if i could, my wake up would have started 15 years ago...
my mom came out and i pushed her away. comfort is one that only few can give me and she wasnt one. i wanted to be alone. she doesnt understand how or who i really am.
its like im in a box labeled fragile and though that box has opened over time some people cant attain whats inside.
Donna comes out and as she pulls me closer i fall into her arms.
that moment was a dear one because affection and cuddle dont come from Donna often. shes more words and smiles than touchy feely.
Donna was there for it all. she came to see me the next morning before she had to go to work and then i ran off from 1pm to 12:15am with Grace. the next week was hard especially as, friends even, told me how terrible i was that i was gonna miss my uncles funeral because i would be at GC camp. they never i understood how that would break me. i needed camp and now more than ever.
even worse was when i had family say straight to my face that i wasnt in my right mind and that i didnt have the right priorities and that i was making church and God too important in my life. how could family say that i 'wasnt in my right mind'?
camp changed me and God began to heal me. heal me of things i thought would never leave.
i had expectation for camp. mostly about my campus but God chose a route i didnt expect.
He touched on things that hurt and that plagued but it was the beginning of a process that still lingers.
all of this came from one song.

amazing how minds work. or mine.
i owe my friends so much.
i love them more than anything except God.
now you see one reason i love Donna so much.
but only one reason cuz there are many.

question now.
when you see that a friend is hurting, and youre praying for them, how can you show them you want to be there for them without crossing a line? without prying for details?
dear friend, its under the blood of Jesus. i love you... and im here for you. always. love, me

Just for the added entertainment =] bahaha

Brittne Roy...

had the sweetest party lastnight hahaha
theme: flight of the conchords. amazing.
charlotte is a super genius and came up with the greatest ideas to do for her
one was green screening onto a cheesy 80s music video
i cant wait to see the finished product
mt friends are hilarious
i love them to death
some people who didnt make it missed out for sure
no party is better than a holy ghost party! oh yeah!
Brittne, youre so beautiful you could be a...

Something to ponder???

I will run the race set before me
I will seek Your face as the prize of my life

(repeat)

I will run, I will run
All I want is You
All I crave is You
The earth sleeps and slumbers;
Lullaby to the sounds of peace and safety
The earth sleeps and slumbers;
Lullaby,lullaby, lullaby....

(Last chorus)

All I want is You
All I crave is You

This is a song by Misty Edwards
This song started as a funny moment in Donnas car
But as I listen to this song again and again the meaning swells within me
I WILL RUN.
Run to God. To His purpose. To His love...

I went to GC lastnight.
As I stood amidst the congregation in worship this overwhelming feeling of hunger and thirst spread through me.
All I wanted was more and more and more of God. Of His presence. But the more I got just wasnt enough. I pressed in and I pressed in. I lifted my hands higher and higher...

Then there was a calm...
A calm in the worship where my spirit blanked and my knees broke from under me.
I fell to the altar craving Jesus.
I worshiped with all that I could manage to pour out
After that wasnt enough I stood to my feet and cried out to God.
I prayed harder than I have in a long time.
Never ceasing until it was forced upon to head to our seats and it took all I had to rip my feet from there place and move away.

All I want is You.
All I crave is You.

Oh, the feeling it is to crave the Holy Spirit.
Crave the touch of Him.

How blessed is it that we, undeserving people, can part the veil and enter in to the God of the universes presence?

Something to ponder...

Yesterday...

Yesterday was sooo much fun! =]
My mom let me skip school to go with Charlotte to her college classes with her.
She goes to UCSD... that schools amazing!
I am so going to that school after Interns and Palomar.
Her history of film class was so interesting.
The professor was apart of the history of film. Hes french and has the thickest accent ever! Everytime he spoke I kept thinking of Les Miserables haha
I was listening to the whole lecture even though I was doodling too
I think well when I doodle =]
I havent had that much fun with Charlotte in a long time
Im glad I got the time with her... I miss her.
There are so many interesting people at college, especially UCSD,
and a lot of people were very close to my age so I never felt that out of place. I like college a lot hahahaha
I want to major in music and do things also with creative writing, literature probably. photography, and maybe some media. psychology is a BIGGG maybe. Because Im not so sure about college psych haha
My life is turning into a bigger adventure everyday and I love it =]

For Jael...

Yes, Jael. You inspire me. =]
You inspire me to blog haha
You inspire me to be bold and not fear.
You inspire me to believe in myself and my gifts.
You inspire me to do things outside of my comfort zone.

I exhort you? Really?
Well, I have to admit I try.
I love to encourage and share any wisdom or knowledge thats been revealed to me.
I like to be moved by the Spirit.
But I guess sometimes I feel I cant because Im younger than most of my friends.
Well, there you go inspiring me again =]
You inspire me to be like Jeremiah.
To not despise my youth.
That I can still be of assistance to someone even if theyre older than me. =]
Aaaand if theyre younger than me well, then I guess the term "youth" doesnt apply hahaha

I love you, Jael! <3

aghhhhh! .... and then.

im so frustrated!
my mom is being a pooooo face!
all over a cell phone!
what nonsense!
i cant wait to leave for connect group!

anyway, i worked on this brochure to convince my science teacher to vacation to mercury for like 2 and a half hours!
ridiculous...
but its good... i laminated it. tehehe
but im having a pretty lame sauce day.

but i have to say i had a good weekend.
on saturday i spent the night at Graces.
i love the lloyds =]
she was in an unusually girly mood, it was weird.
but it was fun and i liked it.
Joanna showed me her wedding invites. Joannas so awesome! her and Josh are the cutest! <3
then me and charlotte talked for 20 minutes until midnight hahaha
then brenda lloyd and i talked until 2:15 am!
shes a character lol
then church on sundayyy woo!
then i went home and nearly passed out doing english vocab homework. but i made myself go on. then as soon as i finished i pushed it aside and BAM i fell asleep.
Graces text message woke me up. we went and saw Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist.
hilarious movie hahaha but prolly needed some discretion.

im in a new season. its nice but weird.
I talked to Pastor Julia yesterday after second service. I felt like God wanted me to step down from Kidz City and step up in GC. I prayed about it. and plus, my mom didnt want me to do KzC anymore but thats not why i stepped down. I asked Pastor Julia what she thought and she totally agreed that I should do more in GC. Then we cried. Then she told Pastor Carl and he gave his blessing. Which I needed from both of them a lot and im glad i got it. Then it was over and i left and cried some more.

my life is so crazy. hah maybe i should start blogging my life more often on top of my poems haha. like Jael <3. I love that woman! she inspires me =]

my brother...

so you know whats funny?
when youre praying for some one and God answers your prayers but then it doesnt come out quite like you wanted.
i need to be more specific lol so now im starting all over again lol
oh, but then, the one question lingers...
what if the prayer that has been answered, although not the way you wanted, is actually in the Will of God but requires a little action from you to make the situation better than you originally planned.
hmmm, thats one to ponder.
but at least i am seeing that the prayers im praying for my brother are being answered... this is a crucial time for prayer to be put out and i have much faith and expectation for the change i long to see in my brothers life. ive never been so driven to intercession for him as i do now. and i love him so much that i am pushing harder than i ever have before. if i could have anything for him, it would be to see him radically changed by the purpose of God. at the front of The City Church worshiping God with all he has. being a man of powerful prayer. and to be an intern with me. forsaking all for the love of God. i want to see breakthrough and freedom which he fails to see now. i want him to live radically by his testimony. i want my brother and i to be closer and that we can be the brother and sister in the church who work radically together. to be examples in how siblings should be. i want us to be like the Roys. or like the fitzpatricks. or even more, like the johnsons. to me the johnsons are my second family. Josh, Nick, Ashley, and I are like brother and sister. and i am so thankful that i have them. to even be thought of as their family. and i cant wait for the day that josh and my brother are best friends.
mt brother means more to me than he even realizes. he has been there for me since the beginning. and even during the times where i had no one else i knew i always had my brother. even when we fought i was always his little sister and no matter what he was there to protect me. and i modeled my whole life after him. and even when that wasnt always best for me he taught me how to fight with all i had. and now my life is modeled after God and after the people that show me the way to live in the Will of God. and now in return to my brother, i want to be a model in his life. proving the character ive built over the past 2 years and intercede for him everyday. and showing him people who could be better friends to him than anyone else. and more than anything, showing him that God has bigger plans in his life than what hes doing, that there is healing in the presence of God. and that God can be his Father even when his natural father cant. that those wounds and pains of loss can be bandaged and overcome by Jesus. i want him to experience what i do everyday. to know the feeling of freedom from bondages and depression and the pain that has turned to numbness. that there is in fact joy in life. something more than just ourselves. that real love is there waiting to overwhelm him.
nothing is impossible with God. not even my brother.
i believe that my persistence over the last 2 years is about to pay off.
God answers prayers and persistence pays off.
and i know that i can hold onto that with all i have because ive seen it. within myself and within others. like Joanna. she fought in prayer for 3 years for her family to come back to the church. i remember when she said, "help me pray for my family, always be persistent britt, God will answer. and pray for my sister Grace. shes so great and i know God has a bigger plan for her life and she just needs to realize it."
joanna told me that about a year and a half ago. and now her mom, dad, sister lael, and grace are fully serving God in the church today. and Grace is now my best friend. im hanging out with her today actually. joannas faith is what i hold onto. because i know that its possible. she has showed me how to fight even when it seems impossible, or it seems too hard and nothings happened and when you feel like you want to give up, to just push on into the Will of God and pray and never give up. so i guess i owe Joanna a really big thank you but i dont think thats enough. and i owe God even more.
Nothing is impossible........

In The Balance...

disconnected, heart and mind
confusion dominates
fighting the functioning ive been in
in time of fasting a revealing unfolds
whats it all mean?
these dreams i see
has reality and my longing fused?
questions left un answered until the ghost from my past takes form again, but why?
maybe its nothing...
is my heart surfacing and ive failed to realize it?
that, im not sure
im in need but i cant pinpoint from where it comes
how can you fix what you cant seem to find? you tell me.
God let Your word come alive
let Your spirit dwell and overwhelm
i need this one
im on the brink of life
of real decisions
my future, or at least my present existence, is on the balance...
what do i do Lord?

its been awhile...

i need to post some of my newer stuff on here
i kinda have been spacing doing it
but ive posted on my myspace blog so...
they just need to be transfered here haha

my life is crazy right now
ive never been so slammed during a fast in my life
but its good
i have a lot to think about
maybe too much
but thats life right?
anyway, ill be back with more
maybe tonight
but i cant transfer my mypace writings until november but i will
but i may put some ones on tonight that i can.
peace.

All I need is You - Hillsong United

my 17th birthday...

was awesome. and it doesnt really end yet.

let me just say jynell s. is so amazing. i love her to death. she made my day.

i am so blessed with the life and friends i have. i do not deserve my friends yet God gave them to me. God is good. so good. things in my life are changing. and boy can i feel it. but its good. God is opening my eyes to new things and taking me deeper with Him. i am maturing in so many ways. im blessed. wow. im sooo blessed.
omigosh one exciting thing is im on the worship team now! sweeeeet.
I LOVE THE LORD! OMIGOSH, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
AND I LOVE MY FRIENDS! I LOVE MY PASTORS! I LOVE MY CHURCH!
i love...

GC Conference... and my song...

was so amazing!
God has worked a lot!
and i met some pretty amazing people from seattle...
yeah theyre bomb...
Pastor Jonathan Stockstill and Pastor Doug Lasit are cool!
and Pastor Angie Stockstill!
man, the lights would get you slain...

so i wrote this song and showed some people...
they likes it a lot!
i was surprised...
so here it is-

How can we fathom
What our eyes fail to see
I never looked into Your eyes
As you gave Your spirit freely
Never touched the blood
That You lost for me
My sin pierced Your side
Blood and water hit the ground
[I] Was washed away
[I] Never witnessed You
Yet here I am
I would die for You
A romance so much deeper
A love so much realer
Who are You to love me?
And who are You to love me?
I'm not worthy to know You
I'm captured by Your grace
My flesh is undeserving
Yet still You cover me
Yet You love me, You loved me
Even as I rejected You
You draw me in

wow...

so my day was weird...
but kinda awesome... kinda
so nick and dillon were BOTH sick today and i was asked to lead prayer
oh yeahhhhh
it was powerful
but everyone forgot about it mostly so it was andy, dominick, and i
but it was still good and andy and dominick said i was just like josh
compliment right? i think so
and then i go to drama class and the whole 2 hour period i had this converastion about my church and God and jarred g. is not really a nice guy
but you know i got to say some stuff that i was proud i knew the answer to but i definitely wanted to call pastor casey, pastor paige, or charlotte during that time
i wasnt sure how to completely respond to some of the remarks
but i think i did ok
but some people can be really rude
i love God and i wasnt afraid to say so
i did what i could and i guess we'll see where that takes it

lastnight, i tried to play my guitar but i cant
kevy is gonna give me lessons as soon as he's not fasting guitar anymore
in like a week and a half so that'll be cool
i really wanna learn how to play and then as soon as he teaches me what he can i can learn more from someone more experienced then i wanna learn to play piano again too
grandma told me id regret quitting lessons as a kid and she was right
i should have listened but i learned
and i wanna learn how to play drums and bass too
haha i wanna learn everything
who says i cant right?

i love music what can i say?
and i love to sing but i can already do that but i can still get better at that too
and i love poetry but thats obvious considering what i have on this blog haha
i lovce anything creative and artsy
speaking of i think im gonna make a movie right now
it takes forever and i only can use still pictures but oh well
=]

my awesome day...

so today...ehr yesterday considering the time was so much fun
i went to church which like always is awesome...my highlight
and then i had connect group and screamed breakthrough at the top of my lungs
then it was set-up for nicoles birthday party
after some set-up me and nicole went on adventure walk talk
very fun
then the party was awesome and i had a great time and i was also the videographer for her birthday movie nicoles roommate charlotte secretly set-up with the help of sarah f. and i...
josh made me laugh so hard haha
then jason, dillon. ben, jynell, and i went bowling until midnight
i havent bowled in a few years so i definitely started bad but im gettting it back
i love jynell omigosh! shes so awesome! jynell is the epitomy of anything you could ever want in a friend and more. im better for knowing her. honestly. she doesnt even know how thankful i am for her. i should tell her...
i seriously have the greatest friends in the world and if youre lucky enough to be friends with them too you better thank God for them right now because there is no one on the planet as great as them. and if youre one of those friends then congratulations youre awesome. i wouldnt trade you for thwe world.
man, when you get us 5 in a bowling alley it gets competitive but always fun!
haha battle of ben and jason is classic over their 'manlihood' haha
conference is in 11 days. im really excited. we're gonna explode the box!!!!!!!!!!

GC Conference 2008

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uhhh...

somewhere to belong
searching for a home
i see the lost
the broken
my heart cries for theirs
mercy on the children
to You they come
i reach out for their hand
carry them with love
in a world full of hate
we are the difference
in You we hope
in You theres grace
i love You Lord
i hear Your voice
in You we find peace
only a prayer away