It's tough sometimes.
Today, I felt like a stick in the mud amongst a field of flowers.
Everyone around me seems to be special.
They are creative, successful, and have so much ability.
And here I sit feeling somewhat… ordinary.
My endeavors and talents don't seem all that great.
My pursuits seem little and regular and my dreams at times feel unattainable or not even worth trying.
I can't think of anything "great" I do and there is nothing to look at that seems very great either.
Does it matter what people say to me? What they think?
Sometimes I get the vibe I am not much to them at all.
Much as in special, not in how much they love me.
I just want all of my efforts to pay off.
I want them to look at me someday and say, "Huh… She did it."
I want the people that never believed in me to be in awe of what God did.
Somedays… It is tough to not be there yet.
To keep on going even when others are shaking their heads at me.
