Confused...

I am confused.
I thought I heard from God.
I thought I would be good enough this time.
I thought I was doing things RIGHT.

You are one of my best friends.
Are you not suppose to fall for your best friend?
We worked.
There was seamless unison.

I just want to know where I went wrong.
Will it always be this way?

They always come to me.
I listen. I advise.
But its never about me.
I get hurt.
And I keep my friends from hurting the best I can.

How come when I do it right it still fails?
I didn't look for this.
It just came.
Everyone saw it.

I thought I knew...

I am confused.
I don't know if I know what I thought I knew.
Did I ever know?
I don't get it.