my brother...

so you know whats funny?
when youre praying for some one and God answers your prayers but then it doesnt come out quite like you wanted.
i need to be more specific lol so now im starting all over again lol
oh, but then, the one question lingers...
what if the prayer that has been answered, although not the way you wanted, is actually in the Will of God but requires a little action from you to make the situation better than you originally planned.
hmmm, thats one to ponder.
but at least i am seeing that the prayers im praying for my brother are being answered... this is a crucial time for prayer to be put out and i have much faith and expectation for the change i long to see in my brothers life. ive never been so driven to intercession for him as i do now. and i love him so much that i am pushing harder than i ever have before. if i could have anything for him, it would be to see him radically changed by the purpose of God. at the front of The City Church worshiping God with all he has. being a man of powerful prayer. and to be an intern with me. forsaking all for the love of God. i want to see breakthrough and freedom which he fails to see now. i want him to live radically by his testimony. i want my brother and i to be closer and that we can be the brother and sister in the church who work radically together. to be examples in how siblings should be. i want us to be like the Roys. or like the fitzpatricks. or even more, like the johnsons. to me the johnsons are my second family. Josh, Nick, Ashley, and I are like brother and sister. and i am so thankful that i have them. to even be thought of as their family. and i cant wait for the day that josh and my brother are best friends.
mt brother means more to me than he even realizes. he has been there for me since the beginning. and even during the times where i had no one else i knew i always had my brother. even when we fought i was always his little sister and no matter what he was there to protect me. and i modeled my whole life after him. and even when that wasnt always best for me he taught me how to fight with all i had. and now my life is modeled after God and after the people that show me the way to live in the Will of God. and now in return to my brother, i want to be a model in his life. proving the character ive built over the past 2 years and intercede for him everyday. and showing him people who could be better friends to him than anyone else. and more than anything, showing him that God has bigger plans in his life than what hes doing, that there is healing in the presence of God. and that God can be his Father even when his natural father cant. that those wounds and pains of loss can be bandaged and overcome by Jesus. i want him to experience what i do everyday. to know the feeling of freedom from bondages and depression and the pain that has turned to numbness. that there is in fact joy in life. something more than just ourselves. that real love is there waiting to overwhelm him.
nothing is impossible with God. not even my brother.
i believe that my persistence over the last 2 years is about to pay off.
God answers prayers and persistence pays off.
and i know that i can hold onto that with all i have because ive seen it. within myself and within others. like Joanna. she fought in prayer for 3 years for her family to come back to the church. i remember when she said, "help me pray for my family, always be persistent britt, God will answer. and pray for my sister Grace. shes so great and i know God has a bigger plan for her life and she just needs to realize it."
joanna told me that about a year and a half ago. and now her mom, dad, sister lael, and grace are fully serving God in the church today. and Grace is now my best friend. im hanging out with her today actually. joannas faith is what i hold onto. because i know that its possible. she has showed me how to fight even when it seems impossible, or it seems too hard and nothings happened and when you feel like you want to give up, to just push on into the Will of God and pray and never give up. so i guess i owe Joanna a really big thank you but i dont think thats enough. and i owe God even more.
Nothing is impossible........