You never said...

You never said this would be easy, rejoice in this deliverance.
Its funny how a song can make you think so deeply on this life.
I am fully alive in God, I have a future, and I carry on in the Lord because I have suffered. I was empty. Wrists bleeding to try and stop the pain.

I love You because You are my Truth and saved me from death.
I reach towards You because its the only thing I can reach for that I can know for sure wont let me down.
I worship because Youre my everything.
Without You, I am nothing.

Conference is tomorrow. I am so excited.
To be a part of it.
And to receive from it.
God comes through in times of desperation,
And I am so desperate for more.
Im tired of being accustomed to You, God.
I am jumping in.
My life is in a pivotal state and to stand in the same place is foolish.

You are breaking and molding but I know the hurt I feel now is good.
A pain I once new is one that made me want to end my life.
This pain is one that pulls me into Your lap and to look to the distance and see something worth living for.
It hurts, but Id have to say, that Im happy with this pain. Because it means Gods working in me. Not the devil.

Thank You, God.
Youve made me whole.
I love You. <3